Feel lost with absolute no direction & no purpose, just stuck as time continues to speed past. One day after another, hoping for a change. I know in order for there to be a change, i need to be the one to make it but what do you do when you have done all you can ? I have ran into a dead end. Every night ends the same , mind full of scrambled thoughts but none of it makes sense. I drown myself in liquor some nights wishing to ease the pain but deep down i know theres no escape. So theres gotta be a solution and answer to all of this. But when and what is it ? The only thing making progress are these drinks being sipped & my mind slowly losing control.