Learn to live a life you don’t need to run from. Do you enjoy burying your thoughts/feelings just to continuously deny the reality of it all? The story always ends the same. You escape until your heart & mind become numb enough that all that’s left are blank emotions , pure emptiness. You need to destroy that vicious cycle & start living. I mean truly living, not just barely making it by. Not just breathing day to day. There’s more to this besides watching the clock go by waiting for the next repetitive day by day patterns to carry on. If that is what your life seems to consist of, you haven’t experienced the beauty of the world. In order to begin , you must first come to ACCEPT the weaknesses you know you have the control to change. Learn to face your unwanted thoughts & feelings & after facing them let them go, do not dwell. Stop waiting to feel that satisfactory, unrealistic feeling to occur & go out and get it yourself, create that genuine contentness/ happiness you’ve been waiting for this whole time. You are never going to be happy, until you decide you want to be happy & make it happen. You are yearning for things to be delivered to you that are unfortunately not even possible. It is time for you to meet the universe half way & give in the effort you would like to receive back. Do not revolve your emotions around people. At the end of the day, you are the only one living with yourself & thoughts. You were born that way & you will leave earth that way. Find what makes your heart satisfied & let it be. Let me tell you as well, there is a major difference between content & happy. Being “happy” is a temporary emotion us as humans experience just like being upset is. To be content is to be OKAY with yourself in the present moment & with the way your life is moving along. As long as you find contentness, you are doing better than the average. Let that be the direction & path to lead you to a life you never have to hide from.. and never turn back.